Ok, maybe it was more of a jog/walk. But still, I hope to make it a habit haha.
Anyways, I was amazed to see the beach on this fine spring day… and the transformation that took place since winter quarter. Just like.. one month ago there were huge ice blocks on the shore and floating chunks of mini-icebergs in the gray water. Today, those ice blocks have diminished into fine grains of sand and the water is silky~ smooth and a sparkling bright blue.
If the warmth and radiance of the sun is able to make such a drastic transformation of nature, then why do we so often doubt whether the Creator of that sun is able to change stubborn, prideful, and unbelieving hearts of people? It may take time that seems longer than we’d like and continual prayers for us to trust and have patience, but God is able and today was a simple reminder of that.
and here I am now, updating you on my life.
wah, already so busy >< but trying to take things one at a time. other random thoughts:
Jesus, how could you accept me? I’m so awful. I’m a failure. I can never please my parents. I will follow you when I become a better person.
What Jesus tells us is “I love you and I accept you —just as you are. You don’t have to make yourself better to come to me. Just come.
Jesus, I am so ashamed that I have failed. I never get it right. I am such a worm.
Yet Jesus’ message to us is “You are going to blow it. You will fail. You don’t have to do it perfectly. I can live with that. I forgive you. Get up.”
Jesus, I never please Dad. Mom always finds fault with my grades. I just can’t live up to their expectations of me.
Jesus tells us, “You’re right. You can’t always please your parents. Instead, find your identity first in me. Yes, your family is important, but pleasing me is more important.”
—-quoted from Following Jesus Without Dishonoring Your Parents
(Personally, I think Jesus’ words would be more loving :D heheh)
I always gain such deep insights about myself, cultures, and God through this book. A lot of reconciliation and guidance too.
Gotta learn to prioritize my time,
even —especially during breaks.
Matthew 11:19 “But wisdom is proved right by her actions.”
Help keep me accountable, please! :)
Ah, good-bye winter quarter :)
birthday celebrations. long, honest conversations. endless meetings. prayer. renewed convictions. added uncertainties. unmet goals. plenty of feelings of inadequacy. and yet, through everything I’ve received grace in abundance. Romans 5:17.
God, thank you for bringing me here. And, thank you for always being with me.